It's been a while since my last post. Truth is, not a lot has been happening. Hopefully June will see things improving and resolving.
This Tuesday I have an appointment with my psychiatrist. First in a while. While I haven't felt crushingly low I certainly am not out from the cover of depression and anxiety. I'm chewing Newlactil like Tic Tacs. I am not sure if the Lithium isn't working or if I just need something else for the depression part. It has stabilised my moods, but at "meh" level. I kind of want more than meh.
Oh Thursday I am off to see the Rheumatologist to follow up from my MRI. I am anxious but looking forward to a diagnosis and a way to move forward with my life. I need to feel like I'm part of the big picture, not just a person stuck at home who isn't even very good at doing housework. I want a job, I want a career, I want to make a decent financial contribution towards my family life.
One thing I have noticed is that people don't seem to want to talk to me about how I'm doing any more. Most people seem happy to just not bring up the subject of my health issues. Is it because it makes them uncomfortable? They don't know what to say? I'm not sure what it is but it makes me feel very lonely. All I want is for someone to contact me to catch up for coffee and see how I'm doing.
